Monday, June 3, 2013

Sometimes things dont go according to plan


I truly believe that the only difference between a dream and a goal is a dead line!
I have always tried to not get wrapped in the competitive part of a race . Ive always  just look forward to finally making it happen . I just  love the training and growing stronger with friends. I love the beginning of race season hearing what everyone is training for , maybe a race or maybe just personal goal . I love all of it  but most of all seeing  or hearing about how they  completed it.
Lately it was different I felt like this season was tough and I didn't know why but all I knew was something was wrong with me . 

 I was tired a lot , dizzy to the point where I was close to fainting . I felt moody , and was frustrated . I thought that maybe I was low in iron , B12 ,  B6 because I follow a  vegetarian diet  ....But then it got worse and my hair started to fall out . I was so upset and scared .I first noticed the hair loss on the plane back from training in Edmonton . I went to scratch my head and found the bald patch . When the plane landed I went to the hospital  spend 8 hrs in the hospital running tests they then found  that I had a low thyroid and Alopecia  . I started meds right away  I also will need to see a doctor to test my heart and check to make sure no damage has happen from my body working so hard to function when my thyroid was low .

Low thyroid meant  low energy ,weight gain , hair loss , fainting , moody ....every thing I was feeling the last few months!
I felt relief knowing my energy would come back , my weight might  not be so hard to  keep off . I have noticed already in 3 weeks of taking my meds  I have way more energy which is so nice not so sleepy but even though I am feeling better and my energy was back . I can honestly say I still had a hard time with the hair loss . The thought of  wearing a wig one day scared me I just felt so sad and to be honest I felt sorry for my self I would just cry when I felt the patch ! how silly I wasn't going to die I just was going to loose my hair and I cant deal with that . I felt so embarrassed that I was so upset I didn't know how I was going to get through this .Then my husband explain to me how he was feeling about my hair loss and I am so thankful he  did  He told me

Your HAIR wasn't  what I first saw when I met you !
It was your EYES ....... you were wearing a hair net , hard hat and smock remember ...we used to work at a meat plant that how we met .
AND  It was your HEART  and your SMILE  fell in love with.
That was all I needed to hear ...what I have learned is from this is
Things may happen in life that will change the way you look on the outside but its  your heart and sole that create who you are as a person and nothings can change that . 
Everyone has   dreams  .....
Staying  strong when everyone would understand if you gave up and   push through  to be able to turn a  dream   to    goals that  will  become a accomplishment is true strength
Choose your goal set  your  dead line and  make all your dreams come true xoxo





 

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